Monday, April 27, 2009

14 weeks

I've been shopping and planning more lately.  I've spent so much of this pregnancy being afraid, afraid that something will go wrong, that one or more won't make it, fearing for the worst.  I am trying to give up the fear, knowing that God would not have given us this miracle, this blessing, this challenge, without us being capable of handling it, whatever happens.

So for the first time since we found out about the triplets I've been buying some things.  Yesterday I bought some receiving blankets and clothes at Target, today I shopped online for clothes and toys, and a few days ago I bought some baby CDs and a couple toys.  I even dragged Sean to USA Baby the other day to look around, I knew Babies R Us would be too overwhelming for him, it is for me!

I have a small bump now, though I call it a "bulge".  If you didn't know I was pregnant, you'd think I had packed on a few pounds (which I'm sure I have, but I don't get on the scale except at the doctors!).  I'm hoping that soon it will look more like I'm pregnant... but I'm not ready to be huge yet.  I also got a belly band the other day, which I haven't worn to work yet, but probably will this week.  Not only does it give me some flexibility with my pants, but I think it smoothes and makes the bulge look more bump-like than fat-like.

Next week we have our next doctor's appointment, I am excited to be more sure about the genders of A (guessed a girl) and C (pretty convinced a boy), and know B's.  That's all for now :)

Friday, April 17, 2009

bye bye first trimester!

Wow, I have to say I thought it would take forever to get to this point!  I almost feel like I've been pregnant forever already, and there (God willing) is so much farther to go.  I am still in normal clothes, but some days I look "fatter" than others.  No bump yet :)  I feel so much better to have this part under my belt, so far so good!

We had our 12-week check up on Monday and all looks good.  My cervix looks great, though at this point it is too early to expect a problem.  The babies were soooo active!  They were bouncing around and moving their arms and legs, A even looked to be kicking C at one point!  I could have watched the ultrasound forever.  They did measure the NT even though we declined screenings and they all look ok, I had to cough to get a couple babies to bounce in their sacs, which is funny because I had a cold last weekend and coughed and sneezed all weekend long!  I thought what a rough ride they must be having :)  We even have gender guesstimates... C got a pretty resounding BOY, and A they waffled on, but settled on GIRL, B had a cord between the legs :)  We don't know anything for sure, but they should be more definitive next appointment (15 weeks).

I am doing pretty well.  We had a super-fun trip to DC the weekend before Easter, and I managed to not be sick at all until the day we left.  Unfortunately that started another round of daily vomiting, but I'm currently at only 1 day in almost the whole last week.  Hopefully I am nearing the end of that :)  I can also sense a change in my appetite.  I went through the first trimester eating barely anything and never knowing whether I would feel sick or whether the food would make me feel better.  Now I am almost always hungry, and not nearly as particular or sensitive about what sounds good and what doesn't.  I think the babies must be screaming for calories!

Right now I feel like we can do this, but I have absolutely no idea what to expect.  I don't know when we'll deliver, I don't know how long they'll be in the NICU, I don't know what we'll do once they get here, I don't know any of this because I've never been through it before, not even with one.  Since I don't know what will happen I am making up my own expectations to keep me optimistic and positive, however "realistic" they may be... I expect to carry three babies as long as I can with minimal complications, I expect to deliver at 35 weeks, I expect the babies to spend less than a week in the NICU (though I'm hoping for take-home babies), I expect that we will be able to take care of all three babies at home and love every minute, and I expect to go back to work when I am able.  Whew.